Is to never done those stupid things in the past. I would've been a healthy person now, but I messed up back then and it's effecting me. I don't wanna stay there for 2 weeks and miss Christmas Day. People are always telling me "I won't die." Well guess what.......? I'm not afraid to die, I'm afraid of losing my memories and forgetting who people are to me. Especially my boyfriend, I know we haven't been together that long yet. But we've known each other for almost 2-3 years now. Although he ignores me through those past months, he was there for me when I needed someone to talk. I know it's weird for me to have a long crush on him, but it's not about that. I'm there in that hospital alone while everyone has to go back to work their ass off to support the surgery $$$$$$$ . When he said "I'll help you remember me..." that means a lot to me. I hope it came from his heart, but that means a lot to me when he said that. iLYSL.
-Fin.
-RELAXXXXX...
