No more hopes and dreams

I got nothing else but myself. I'm trying to control my motions and feelings. This whole day was fun and busy, then comes to coming home at night is where I start struggling. What I use to have back then was hopeless and I promise myself I will never go back again. Now is another hopeless thing, is losing my life forever without even knowing it. I was sleeping last night, and I forgot what was the dream was, and woke up breathless. I couldn't breathe at all. I've past out many times last year, sometimes my folks are scared that I might die in my sleep for no reason. I'm still aware of that also, sometimes I don't really care. But now, I`m seeing all the things that I have are fading away from me. I wonder every night, what if I died how will the world turn out? How will people act if I`m not here anymore.....My last thought every night, is it worth living my life here. Sometimes I see people doesn't really care how I feel about this.......I feel worthless sometimes.

Everynight I don't have the same or positive dreams any longer. It's something else..............and i cannot say. This is where i will leave my spot for tonight.