Not In A Good Mood

It's hard to explain why I'm acting/feeling like this. Families & my Ngm's Families are super dupper awesome. It's just friends, school, and life is confusing me somewhere in the middle of the line. Friends are just making me feel left out, they are all close to one another and I feel like I'm stuck between the middle or left behind. My mom owes me money and giving me one of her stubborn lame ass excuses. It might be the rain that's making me feel like this, but I don't think it's just the rain. It's hard dealing with relationships and hate the part where it breaks my heart. I really just want to cry now, but I can't. I know life can be hard, but some people, like me, just can't keep on handling the same shit everyday. Everyday and now, people are just pretending to be my friend so they can take advantage of me to cover up their shit and making me take the blames that they did and not me. I don't really know what's going on anymore, I can't really think much anymore. It's like my real soul is hiding somewhere inside of me and don't want to come out until everything is safe for her to come out. I hate feeling like this, because I just start looking back how everything was even worser than right now. I want to do the stupidest thing that I did back then, but it's not worth it. The past is the past, but it's just dragging me back and I'm here by myself holding onto something so the past can't drag me back.

-Fin

-ViviisHurt.